I’m Changing the Concept of 196before30

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Sometimes the details are a little fuzzy; the key is to see the beauty through the confusion.

In case you haven’t noticed I’ve been pretty radio silent the last two weeks. I haven’t really posted anything on my blog nor my Instagram. And there’s a reason for that: I was just so uninspired. There are a million travel blogs out there, what makes mine any different? If anything, I’m just reiterating the same things that have already been said a million times by every travel blogger that has come before me: here’s how to do such and such, here’s where to go in such and such city/country, here’s where to eat, what to see… the list goes on.

 

Then last night I read an article that really just resonated with me: http://temporaryprovisions.com/why-im-boycotting-travel-bloggers-and-you-should-too/

 

This article put into words everything I’d been feeling for the last few weeks. And it gave me the push I needed to decide to completely change my approach to how I’m going to run my blog from here on out. I don’t want to put out this fake idea of what traveling is. Traveling is a million things rolled into one, and I think it’s wrong to try to present it as only those awe-inspiring, jaw-dropping moments of indescribable wonder.

 

Don’t get me wrong, traveling is THAT; it really is. But it’s also so much more. Travel is hard and uncomfortable, it’s making a million mistakes and learning from them only to make a million more, different mistakes when you go to a new country. But that’s what I love about it. I love that I never really feel like I’m in my element. I love having to constantly adapt to new surroundings, new cultures, new “norms.” And because I’m constantly thrown into unfamiliar situations, there are very few moments where I ever feel like “I’ve got this. I know exactly what I’m doing.”

 

So what I want to do with this blog from now on is show you guys that never really feeling like I’m completely in control, like I have it all together is not only ok, it’s the reason I do what I do. I would love to be “that” girl, the one who’s 5’10” and blonde, who travels the world and takes model-worthy pictures in every location only to gush about how “amazing” everything is, from the food to the people to the hotel she’s staying at. I mean who wouldn’t want to be that girl? That’s kind of the point right, everything about the way these girls’ online presence is constructed is meant to make you want to be them – and there is nothing wrong with that… I’ve just decided that I’d rather be me.

 

And me is 5’4” and brunette, with a big nose and an even bigger desire to learn as much I can about this world and the people in it. I’m afraid of a million things and I don’t always think that I everything I see/do when I’m traveling is “amazing.” More often than not, my outfits look like they were put together by a 13-year-old with a limited budget (although every now and then I actually look like I have some sense of style – but trust me, this is always either an accident or the work of a friend). I drop things, I walk into glass doors, I laugh too loud and I’m constantly tripping or falling because I’d rather look up at the sky and the tops of the buildings than the ground right in front of me.

 

Hopefully this change of perspective in my blog will not only inspire you to travel – because there is so much of this world to explore that it’s a shame not to – but also give you the confidence to know that even if everything isn’t “perfect” or even if it doesn’t always go “according to plan” it will still be more worth it than you’ll ever be able to explain to anyone who wasn’t there. If I accomplish nothing else, I hope that after reading my stories you’ll think “Hey, if that girl can fuck up every five seconds and still somehow make it work, maybe I can too.”